Friday, November 18, 2011

Chase

Sitting in the office has this ability to make me think too much. There are a lot of thoughts swimming through my mind today. Good ones. Bad ones. What if I don't turn out the way I want to in 2 years time? What if I fail? What if I become a failure in life? What if things turn out the way I wanted it to? What if things turn out well? What if La Novella becomes a success? What will I do then?

Whether or not the business turns out well, I always have this same dilemma. What will I do later on in life then? I don't want to keep running around chasing after money. I don't want to lead a life where I am enslaved to my job. I want to lead a carefree life. I want to tour the world. I want to travel and learn all the wonders of Earth. I want to do things that makes me happy. I don't want to be tied down to the same spot just because. 

But I realize this is a very naive thinking. How can anyone drop whatever they have on hand to just travel the world? How can anyone just drop everything just to be happy? How does anyone know that they have earned enough money to stop being enslaved to it? What is having enough money? 

It is sad isn't it? Because life is just like a vicious cycle. There are endless things that you want to achieve. There are endless things that you want to chase after. There is this endless materialism that you'd like to fulfill. And let me just say that even those people who tells the whole world "they don't believe in money", "they only like nature" etc chases after things as well. We are all enslaved to a goal in life. We are all enslaved to something that we will spend our entire life chasing after. 

Some people chase after money. Some chase after fame. Some chase after peace. Some just after eternal wealth. Some recognition. 

What do you chase after? 

And no. Please don't ask me to stop being sad/emo just because I wrote this post. I don't have these emotions in me right now. All I have is a brain that works too quickly. A brain that is registering too much  thoughts.