Today, I am tired.

I frequently wonder how life would have turned out if I didn't start La Novella. Would I be happier? Would I be earning more? Would I have a 5 digits saving? Would I be married earlier? Would we be less stressed up?

What would life be like?

At this point in my life, life is exhausting.

I feel suffocated by money, the lack thereof.
I feel suffocated by my business and the problems that comes with it. The staff issues, the rental, the management, the workload.
I feel suffocated by life.

I've lost a lot of friends over the years. Not by choice...
Somedays, I forget to reply my friends because I didn't have a breather throughout the day. Other days, I am simply too tired to even reply.

Then, there are days when I feel so icky about my current life situation that I don't even want to reply.

I love my friends, and I miss all of them. But when it comes to connecting with them, I honestly have lost my touch.

I would love to meet them, but then what would I say?

That my 4 years venture is still nothing?